Ok look here, in this post i dont want to mention names. And if you think im attetion seeking or whatever, go ahead I cant stop you from judging anyway.
I had a best friend, we knew each other during our Primary School days cos we attended the same Ballet class. When we first knew each other she would pick on me ALOT, she would often asked others not to talk to me, take my pictures and edit it until like SHIT and make fun of me.
Although i have learnt Ballet since young, i wasnt good at it anyway ... I couldnt do spilts, i couldnt get the moves right, i danced like a robot. But she instead was way better, she could do spilts, she could get the moves right. Things were kinda horrible for us back than ...
And than, i had moved up to a different Ballet grade soon, i didnt see her for quite some time. We
lost cotanct withhh each other. But when i first came into Sec 1(Im Sec 2 now) she happened to be
in the same class as me, cos i didnt knew anyone during the first day of school so i sat with her.
We chatted a little, and i realised she wasnt that bad afterall ... than we had 2 other people whoo joined our clique, things were going well than :) Than came this boy ...
- FAST FORWARDS -
Than the year of being Sec 1 was about to come to an end, she told me she liked this guy. And
during one of the Skype conversation the guy asked her to be his girlfriend. She was fucking happy
but she didnt realise her happiness wouldnt last. She didnt knew, the guy actually didnt even like
her at all, it was all a joke. YES IT WAS ALL JUST A JOKE. I also didnt know until this year
lol, So they stead for 1 day and broke up 1 day later. WHAT THE FUCK SERIOUSLY.
So time flies, Sec 2 came, more stress :( The starting was rather great, than it was my turn. I
realised i liked him, i didnt confess to him. But i thought he was a good, caring guy. I thought
he was the perfect guy for me ... I was wrong, back than in earlier i had some problems with my
ex bf. I needed counselling, he helped me to get over my ex bf, we would chat with each other
sending each other really sweet texts, he said i was his princess and eventually he said he liked me.
BUT, one day in the school hall i cried really badly cos someone said i was ugly, he saw what
happened, he sat beside me and we talked. She saw that he and I were chatting and sitting beside
each other, she suspected something. School ended, she asked me what he and i talked about, I
refused to tell her, i ran away. This was the start of everything ...
She hated me for not telling her what he and I siad, she told my other best friend, i was a slut, i
stole her happiness. And if dare to stead with him she would call the other guy classmates to hate me. My best friend told me everything .. I didnt know what to say ... Back in late 2012 the same
thing happened, the guy i like, liked her. She told my best friends, not to tell me. If you can treat me
like this, WHY CANT I DO THE SAME THING TO YOU FUCKER.
27/03 : Our school organised a learning journey math trail at Changi Airport. Halfway through
he suddenly asked me : "Will you be my girlfriend?" I was shocked and effing happy that time!
I accepeted, i thought we would be together for atleast a month or two, but my happiness is short.
After the maths trail, we went to have some lunch with our classmates. I told my guy classmates
about her, they told me not to worry they would help me.
28/03 : School started like usual, but i noticed he acted really different towards me, i sensed
something bad was about to happen, and it came through. We were on the way for lunch like
usual, he suddenly asked those classmates who were walking near us to walk infront. I thought he
wanted some private time with me. I WAS WRONG, he told me 'Lets break up' i fucking
cried on the spot, he said he wasnt ready for a relationship yet, WHAT THE FUCK SERIOUSLY.
He told me to stop crying and he said he was sorry. Its like throwing a knife at me over and over ..
Eventually she found out, SHE WAS FUCKING HAPPY. She told my other best friend that she
didnt want me and him together. After the breakup, he and i still were friends, until a certain point of
time, our whatsapp chats become lesser, eventually it stopped. I thought it was ok, maybe we still
could chat with each other in school. No i was wrong, we seldom talked, sometimes only looking at
each other and thats all. No Skype conferences,no whatsapp texts, no talking. Nothing at all ...
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